Me Love To Ramble

I feel weird because i knew that it would end up shitty and the day did end up shitty... That *bleep* brother of mine just pissed me off because he volunteered to participate in his school's writing competition and now he's crying like hell saying that he dun have time to write dunno how to write got a lot of test, all those crap excuses came out. And bring me whole lot of trouble...sheesh....

It's so UNFAIR YOU KNOW THAT?? my brother did badly, i take the blame. His english got worse marks than my students, i take the blame. SHIT..... I NEED TO HANDLE THE PRESSURE EVEN THOUGH I AM OUTTA THE AGE...DAMN

after all these tortures....i want to sing
I will survive
Oh as long as I know how to love
I know I'll stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
And I will survive
I will survive

Posted by Ding at 2/29/2004 06:41:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

HA!! I changed my server to angelfire and it works...The picture is on my blog!! I am so happy..woo hoo!!

Desmond sold a Guess catalog for USD$17 on e-bay which is ridiculous, i wonder what's the reason that dumbass bought it for ...i wanna sell all the trash that i duwan on e-bay also....maybe i can become a millionaire by selling trash, then people will call me a trash queen but i won't mind since i am so rich then.

Its a nice day to start off..but still feeling kinda weird..

Posted by Ding at 2/29/2004 11:34:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

The elders saw my nails and they were kinda pissed off..funny thing because dad wasn't one of them...Anyway..i think this green nails really bring me luck....i don't give a damn who doesn't like it.

I think Yi Shen has a gf already...I don't want to ask him because he'll probably say that it has nothing to do with me anymore..Hmm..but i still like him and will still continue to like him even if he has a girl....

BORED...I WANNA DRINK MILK TEA WITH PEARL......STILL BORED...

Posted by Ding at 2/28/2004 01:08:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

SEE !! I TOLD YOU!! Green nails really bring me luck. TRIBERS IS BACK!!BACK FROM INDIA!! BACK IN MALAYSIA!! BACK TO MY ARMS!! YESS!! I can hear the hallelujah chorus everywhere...I can see pink flowers blooming out of no where.. I can see pink birds flying around the blue sky.. I can smell Haagen Dazs strawberry ice-cream even from Sri Gombak.. YES! DESMOND!! I can feel Godiva chocolates melting into my mouth.. IT'S SO GOOD TO BE ALIVE... YOU HEAR ME, DESPERATE PEOPLE WHO WANTS TO DIE?? ITS GOOD TO BE ALIVE!!

Posted by Ding at 2/27/2004 11:00:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

Kinda tired...dunno why...tired and cold but i am happy because i painted my fingernails green...looks hippy.


Tonight got jap class..something to look forward to... Desmond called Jen Hui...Wonder what's Jen Hui thinking.. Maybe they could be together afterall. Suddenly feel like singing this song.(though i think the lyrics is kinda crappy and i would never do something like that, who cares,as long as i like it ^^)
I will follow Him,
Follow Him wherever He may go,
And near Him, I always will be
For nothing can keep me away,
He is my destiny.

I will follow Him,
Ever since He touched my heart I knew,
There isn't an ocean too deep,
A mountain so high it can keep,
Keep me away, away from His love.

I love Him, I love Him, I love Him,
And where He goes,
I'll follow, I'll follow, I'll follow.

I am still feeling one kind today...maybe i should go get myself some ice cream.

Posted by Ding at 2/27/2004 08:53:00 午前 | Permalink

BAD NEWS
Shit for my midpoint formula....when i was doing it....i still reminded myself that quantity's over price.....but then i wrote price over quantity !! DAMN IT~@#$%

I screwed up my maths quiz coz i din do my homework. serves me right. But then i know how to do that kinda problems already.

I wonder where's Desmond..kinda miss him..maybe he don't want to talk to me because i lost the badge he gave me.

Shu Guan they all said that the Karaoke trip is POSTPONED TILL FURTHER NOTICET_T

OK OK NEWS
I am still considering working in starbucks, its only 4.5/h which is kinda little and a lot of work. But i can kill time and drink free coffee around there.

GOOD NEWS
Ms Jaime is PREGNANT...i am so happy for her.. because i think that's a very pleasant thing to hear early in the morning.

Yun Shiang's working here starting next week, assistant secretary to the minister of health....cool..i got another friend to hang out with on tuesdays and thursdays already.

King's wearing pink today ^_^

This is a very weird day because i feel really weird ,despite all the things that happened, like the green tea ice cream i had in isetan that day, kinda bittersweet ....

Posted by Ding at 2/25/2004 09:26:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

I had a shitty vacation... It all started off when we started the journey.

My aunty's bag got snatched by a thief....so we gotta go to the police station before heading off...then the journey was so slow..because the jam, and saturday and everything, We reached there like 8 hours later. Everything was fine untill the second day when we visited the temple of Goddess of Mercy, my mom gave some small change to one of the beggars hanging around there. then outta the sudden the whole crowd.. i tell you really its a big crowd, so big that you can only see their hands..came out. Then i told my mom that i have some small change and so i gave to a couple of the hands that i see there....but not enough... so some of the beggars din get it. AND YOU KNOW WHAT THEY SAY?? They say why dun you go and change your note and give it to us.. My reaction then was like " ohmigod" since they're all strong and fit enuff to work, THEN THERE WAS THIS WOMAN: who kept repeating and told all her beggar friends.. " CRAZY, wanna give but duwan to change what kinda people is that, Got heart then give laa... pukimak..." IT was then i got so angry and said shit them THE WORST THING STARTS HERE: My mom say this reaction of mine makes me the same range as them!!!!!!! Can you imagine that anger and fury?? You're trying to tell someone about that Anger but they scolded you and said that you're wrong. I cried while she was scolding me and mom was scolding me for the whole day outta the matter when i still think that i am so damn right..and i cried for the whole damn day .I never feel that i am wrong..That shit them that i say is outta anger but not scolding them...But my mom just went on and on untill like half and hours ago. I swear i duwan to give half a cent to beggars who beg from me anymore...DAMN IT.

The whole trip was shitty..the only thing that is worth a say is that visit to the hospital to see my uncle (mom's cousin) He's a mafia....but a really cool one. I saw him and find that he looks like one of the godfather. He acts like one also. I like him even though i dun really know him, he sounds and is really an interesting character. I would write a biography of him if i can. Wish he'll get well.

Everything went almost wrong because i lost the kiss my arse badge desmond gave me..Hope it's in my locker.

Posted by Ding at 2/23/2004 09:48:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

I had a bad day today. First i lost a favourite badge which desmond got it for me last year...then i quarreled with a friend over some matter i posted on the blog. Then i don't feel like going to Penang anymore. Then i got scolded by my mom that i am not responsible for my brother whereelse other people are so responsible for their siblings. This make me a sheer loser...shit.. I don't feel good now...not at all...even strawberry ice cream couldn't help much. Damn .. sometimes i really hate fridays.

Posted by Ding at 2/20/2004 10:44:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

Yay....today we finally set a date for our outing at Red box...Its next monday!! YOO HOO!!

I had a nice day today despite Sam's fight with her boyfriend, Desmond's blog saying that he wanna kill himself, crappy CSCI test this friday, scolding cause of misunderstanding by Mr Guna, the shitty maths problems, got stopped and scolded by a bloody big size anene because i ran into the train before everyone got out ..etc etc.... the whole day feels like strawberry HÄagen Dazs icecream...nice and creamy and juicy..

I try to get myself some part time job at home...to earn extra cash.. i am so poor after stopping every tuition i am teaching. Hopefully i can get the job.

Nice and creamy..do you feel that way too?

Posted by Ding at 2/18/2004 08:51:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

Today's a weird day....i am observing all the guys around me seeing whether if there's any one fair and tall and macho..because my aunty dreamt that my bf looks that way, and her dreams are always so accurate.. Didn't meet any.

Anyway, i met this guy who use to take the same feeder bus with me last time who is also staying somewhere near my place. I never know him but then he always smile when he sees me..trying to act friendly i guess. Today when he sees me he said :
" I tot I will never see you again.My name's Kenny." and quickly ask for my number.

What do you think he's thinking?? Are you thinking what i am thinking? or do you think i think too much??

Don’t say you love me
You don’t even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don’t go there baby
Not before I’m ready
Don’t say your heart’s in a hurry
It’s not like we’re gonna get married
Give me, give me some time

Looking forward to Desmond's Godiva. Craving for it.mmmmmmm..

Posted by Ding at 2/16/2004 08:10:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

Went for dinner. Watched Cold Mountain and shed a few tears when Inman died. Nothing much. That's a typical Valentine celebration for someone's who's not attractive like me. What to do? The guys that you like will never like you, and the guys you don't like keep dating you out. Attractive girls got all the dates.

Damn Valentine and all the guys i like. Shit.

Tribers, this is for you:

Those days of love are gone
Our time is through
Still I burn on and on
All of my life
Only for you

From now
Until forever
And ever, my darling
Forever
You will always be the only one

As long as I shall live
I'll hold you dear
And I will reminisce
Of our love all through the years

From now
Until forever
And ever, my darling
Forever
You will always be the only one

If you should ever need me
Unfailingly, I will return to your arms
And unburden your heart
And if you should remember
That we belong together
Never be ashamed
Call my name
Tell me I'm the one you treasure

Posted by Ding at 2/14/2004 09:59:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

Yo people! Feeling groovy baby......

What the *bleep*!! Desmond wanna give Jen Hui a buzz on Valentines.. I dunno why people can be so blind when they're in love. I am just saying, because i am one of them also. Wonder what's Tribers doing over there in India then. I wonder what's Kor doing on that day, DAMN !! i missed him, and also Lionel and zhern wei and everyone that i can think of!! Wonder why the thoughts of them only appear when Valentines is near...BECAUSE LOVE IS ALL AROUND BABY!! SHAGELIDIC BABY!! LETS ROCK BABY!! COME ON AND FEEL THE LURVE, BROTHER!!

Damn it. I sound so much like a hippy... but i feel love.... REALLY NO JOKE...i feel love.

Posted by Ding at 2/12/2004 08:44:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

Good morning everyone.......i woke up so fresh today.. a good start.

Came to school, took picture of King, he's so cute...cute as in brotherly kinda cute.

I have a very weird period this month.....the blood is like so little and instead of blood, some gluey, brownish, no smell stuff came out. What the FUCK is happening to me?? Maybe i have too much pressure from the society recently . ( whaaat damn reason is that? )

Today is a happy day, that's for sure, i can feel happiness in the air. (except for the period thingy, shit )

Posted by Ding at 2/11/2004 11:05:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

I am still in the computer lab.Did some really crap brochure. I am now waiting for Sam to be done... King wore pink today.^_^ makes me very happy.

Pink it´s my new obsession
Pink it´s not even a question
Pink on the lips of your lover, ´cause
Pink is the love you discover

Pink as the bing on your cherry
Pink ´cause you are so very
Pink it´s the color of passion
'Cause today it just goes with the fashion

Pink it was love at first sight, yeah
Pink when I turn out the light, and
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight.

AH.....going to rain like hell.lucky thing i brought my umbrella... I am still so happy even though its raining..hope the rain is pink. Miss you Desmond.

Posted by Ding at 2/09/2004 04:02:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

Shit....Voon is still so captivating...

I like my coulderoy bag so much but mom and brother said that it looks like poor peoples bag...but i still like it so much. i think it look rugged, not poor people looking like what they say.



Spend the whole day doing nothing..told you complicated feelings will end up with something like this... watched some really cheapo production porn. Porn are always illogical but people like it because the actors are always sighing and screaming like dogs to boost the sex drive and the reality is that people don't even need to scream and they still can enjoy sex. Due to this illusion, guys always expect their partner to have big boobs and scream when they get screwed, and gals always expect their partner to have big genitals. FOR GOD's SAKE..WAKE UP EVERYONE WHO"S STILL IN THIS BIG FAT LIE!! WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE!!

This world is really full of illusions.....damn me who is also one of them living in an illusion.

Posted by Ding at 2/07/2004 10:40:00 午後 | Permalink

Woke up early today...online...saw Voon's picture, damn he's still as cute as ever. I wonder who's that *bleep* who's stuck to him.



Anyway, I am feeling happy today because i got my coulderoy bag. Feeling bored because today's a saturday, no interesting TV shows showing. Feeling dreamy because i saw Voon's picture. Feeling jealous because Voon's not single. Feeling dunno how to describe because i am talking to Desmond. Feeling weird because mom's at home early in the morning. Feeling one kind because i am kinda broke after buying the bag. Feel hungry because I haven't have my breakfast.

Complicated feelings make a complicated day....shit.

Posted by Ding at 2/07/2004 09:10:00 午前 | Permalink

Morning to the world!!!
Today started dreamily, again, cause King talked to me. Maybe i should write a book entitled "King & I ". I don't like him, but everytime i talk to him, even though the topic is on the girl that he likes, i still feel dreamy and light and happy and...

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon-dust
In your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue

That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Just like me, they long to be
Close to you

Damn....i still want to get that benetton bag.. but i wonder how i can get it. But a good day will find the way. =)

Posted by Ding at 2/06/2004 09:18:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

Listening to White Christmas, instrumental version...sounds so cooling and loving, which is something not too suitable to listen on a february night in Malaysia. But i like it, who give a damn.

Saw this bag on the Benetton webpage.. It s so cute, beige as the back with a black outlined dog. Too bad they're only selling serious stuff here in KL and they're not selling it online. I would risk my life for a bag that cute. T_T Mom saw it and she said she will sew it for me, and ask me to draw the dog on myself.That's shitty. I think i'll get the coulderoy one i saw that day.


Godiva chocolates, it sounds like god, so the prices are god damned high. But i will try it since desmond says it taste different. I wish someone will get me that chocolate on Valentine. Whoever gives me that , I am going to kiss him(her).

Kinda boring today...but still in the dreamy mood...

Posted by Ding at 2/05/2004 10:39:00 午後 | Permalink

King came up and talked to me, which made me feel suprised but good and happy and flowy and light and sweet and dreamy for the whole day long =) He look extremely cute than before although chin wah said that he look kinda gay after his haircut. Taihen Kawaii desune~~



Watched Last Samurai with How Yean and Sam. I booked the ticket through phone earlier and when and i got there they said that i booked Silverhawk. SHIT!! DAMN!! The queue was so damn long that time so we tried to call and call and call......but the stupid hotline something wrong..double damn. So the phone calls which couldn't get us ticket wasted around $15 of our airtime, we queue up (last resort) for more than half an hour.
BUT,
the show worth more than the money and the "hardwork" that we paid..IT IS SO GOOD!!!That damn bastard Okura....He killed my beloved Katsumoto....Tom cruise should die instead Katsumoto (though Tom Cruise is good in that movie too) The spirit of Samurai is so good...so good till i feel like eating mcd's samurai burger to feel the samurai spirit after the movie.

Today's a nice day....sweet and flowy and light and dreamy and so MAGICAL....love it

Posted by Ding at 2/04/2004 10:48:00 午後 | Permalink

Okie......i went K today. I tot it was just a "jap class affair" with all of us but actually it was just 40% of us.... the others were total stranger. I felt weird because they were a generation older...so they sang all those "everlasting love songs" (if you know what i mean). At that glimpse of moment.......i felt so left out because thinking back the past 2 years, i was stuck in the middle of the age group...i am always hanging out with people who are either much much younger or much much older. Shit. I am an outcast. So during this K thing, we introduced each other and there was this weird guy who held my hand real tight when he was shaking my hand, he even asked my number before going. Maybe he's a phidophile..(did i get the word right?)

i got myself a sullivan baby squirrel....taihen kawaii desune!!



watched GOTHIKA-- the show that gave a lot of the malaysians first impression as a cheapo malay ghost movie. Turned out to be good...the story was good....everything was good...just that the air con in the cinema was so damn cold..

Wanna go to bed....Damn a tiring day.

Posted by Ding at 2/03/2004 11:02:00 午後 | Permalink

Woke up raining today......maybe is a sad day today. I was still reading a couple of the letters that my friends sent me after blogging yesterday. I felt complicated when i think back the first time that i really got seriously into relationship and that person hurt me so deep that i could only recover like a year later. Yesterday i read a letter from a close friend years ago telling me that after i left penang, she actually talked to the guy and revealed that the day the guy sent me off penang, actually his heart was broken. The reason i felt complicated was because till this day i don't know whether he had ever been serious. He is such a complicated boy. Wonder how he's doing now.

Goodbye, no use leading with our chins
This is where our story ends
Never lovers, ever friends...
Goodbye, let our hearts call it a day
But before you walk away
I sincerely want to say...

I wish you bluebirds in the Spring
To give your heart a song to sing
And then a kiss, but more than this, I wish you love!

And in July a lemonade
To cool you in some leafy glade
I wish you health, and more than wealth, I wish you love!

My breaking heart and I agree
That you and I could never ever be
So with my best, my very best, I set you free!

I wish you shelter from the storm
A cozy fire to keep you warm
But most of all, but most of all...
When snowflakes fall, I wish you wealth
I wish you health...I wish you love!


Damn. I am getting terribly sentimental nowadays. I should burn all those letters some time.

Posted by Ding at 2/02/2004 10:57:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

June came over to my house today. We read through letters from her and mei yee and a whole bunch of friends when i was in Penang. They sounds so stupidly childish. How could i have ever written and done stuff which are so out of da mind??

The id and superego finally negotiates and ego came out with an answer which is smoking is bad for health and very unfeminine...so i shouldn't do it.

wanna go watch gothika tommorow..How Yean said he thought it was a low production malay ghost movie...wanna watch last samurai also...wait till wednesday!!

Damn another boring day...

Posted by Ding at 2/01/2004 06:31:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments