Me Love To Ramble

I skipped French today since I was sick.
So I chatted with Tribers, my old "flame".
Nothing much.
"Olives is indeed fatty. Think olive oil."
Thanks anonymous who told me that.
I will stop myself from eating olives.
Periods here.
Feel sluggish.
Luckily the water here in Buffalo doesn't smell bad.
Like what June said.
Hope in a Jar is good.
It gives hope to my face.
It might not give me the pretty complexion.
But at least it keeps it smooth and fair.
That's more than enough.
I am a princess to someone.
That is sweet enough to know.

That's it for today.

Posted by Ding at 2/28/2006 09:26:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

And it was cold today.
I had a foot long sub. With extra olives.
Love olives.
And I ate the olives while American Idol is on.
God I love that show.
God I love Taylor Hicks.
And I gotta go sleep.

Posted by Ding at 2/24/2006 02:52:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

Lately I have been very into these black little edible rings called olives.
I get those subway people to put extra olives for me in my veggie sandwich.
I finish each and every little piece of it.
And I feel happy.

Lately french has been on my mind all the time.
I studied hard.
Still I remember d'accord as l'accord.
And I feel stupid.

Lately I have these dreams about my childhood.
Oh how happy I was there.
I dreamt about everyone.
And I feel lonely.

Lately I think my health has been deteriorating.
I have brittle nails and hair with split ends.
I am forgetful and exhausted all the time.
And I feel death.

Lately I am not so 'me'.

Posted by Ding at 2/23/2006 01:25:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

This post got nothing to do with Matt.
Although he treated me an altoid cinammon mint,
and laughed but supported my stupid idea,
and we walked out of alumni and go through CFA together.
That doesn't mean anything.

This post is about how fat and ugly I am.
and how ugly I felt when Matt is around.

Hell ya..I am fat.
and ugly.
And trying to buy some good stuff to hide this ugly face of mine.
and this bloody weather out there
make me feel even worse.
I feel like a pig.
Oh shit.

Posted by Ding at 2/22/2006 04:13:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

I am fat and I hate myself.
Everyone is pretty but me.
The fat people have pretty face.
The skinny people have pretty face.
The perfect people have everything.

BUT I HAVE NOTHING.

I have small eyes. flat nose. fat tummy. elephant sized legs.

Ha..That's me and I hate myself.

Posted by Ding at 2/21/2006 01:11:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

I know it's odd to start a resolution like the end of february..But so what?
As long as I can follow, nothing is too late.

Learn Frech well.
Go gym every mon, wed, fri.
Save some money.
A seafood vegetarian. (maybe)
Drink milk every day.

What else..

Let me see...

Oh..

At least get an internship for the summer.
If not i'll be so fucked up.

Posted by Ding at 2/20/2006 12:29:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

My mind got drifted away by the thoughts of buying gifts for my parents when I meet them up in UK. Should I get a LV bag for my mom? and a Mont Blanc pen for my dad? Then an i pod for my adorable brother...And something pulls me back from dreaming further.

The money in my bank account.

Say if I go to NYC this spring, and get my handphone, and then, get all those things that I have mentioned...I will be in debt...like serious debt..And what am I suppose to do during the summer if I am not applying for the internship? Ohmigod.

And my French classes is shit. I couldn't actually get a single word that my Lecturer said in the practice oral test just now. Was it me? or was it the lecturer? And later on only I found out: It's the lecturer.

I was walking on the hallway and I heard my classmates saying: "I couldn't get what he says exactly even after like four years of french learning. I feel sorry for those who sit in the class, first time learning french and showing blank expressions to the board trying to figure out what he says."

I am sure this statement is pointing , with a real HUGE arrow, to me.

Because they lowered down their voices when they see me walking pass.

Not that I am sensitive, but yeah, I am one of the few first time French learning students, and I am the only one newbie who attended the class today. The others are PRO.

Damn.Maybe I should start reading my textbook.

And it is snowing.

And it is minus dunno what with REALLY strong wind.

And I feel like shit rite now.

Almost broke and helpless.

Posted by Ding at 2/18/2006 01:19:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

You must be curious who's this Matt guy.

Matt, the guy I have been eyeing a while in my Com205 class since the semester started.

If you know me well enough,you should know the reasons why I eye a guy.

If you don't know me, these are the following reasons:
1. He's cute.
2. He's funny.
3. He has the charms.
4. He's super cute
5. He's weird.
6. He has an odd in a good way fashion taste.
7. He's mysterious.
8. Any reason that a girl eye a boy.

And usually, Matt sits in front of me. And he's a man of few words but melts you when he smile. The charm in his eyes never stop glowing. I get to know him because we are always in the same group. Undeniably, he's the ohsocool type, like a young dangerous biker with his own rock band and owns a harley. The truth is that he's so cute that I always lost my words when I talk to him. Shit.

Today, I struggled to find words to talk to him. He sat RIGHT beside me.

And we spoke. Seriously. For the very first time.

And I finally realize that all his charms don't come out from nothing. He was a QB since forever, and he played for the national team. He was one of the top skateboarders that skated with some of the big guys in that field. And that is when he was 11. He later on was offered scholarship by the University of Georgia. And blah blah blah...yaddah yaddah...and he ended up in UB.And he is interning with an ad firm as a copywriter.The most important thing is that he's still so cute. And he has grey eyes. And he looks sleek and clean even he's not cleanly shave. And he looks so cute in his yellow leather jacket. And this and that and yaddah yaddah blah blah blah.

Told you I couldn't talk properly when I talk to him. Now it seems like I also struggle with my words when I speak about him.

He's oh so cute.

And I spoke to Matt.

Posted by Ding at 2/17/2006 12:52:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

story1:
If you read my previous post you should know how I felt about my caramel macchiato.Well this is the sequel. I ended up having a stomach ache after I finish that drink.
Great.

story 2:
I went to my com125 class and this guy , James, who sit beside me all the time popped up a question.

"So how's valentines?"he asked.

"Nothing much."

Then we looked at each other with the "ohyouknowwhy" look.

"Valentines suck."he frowned.

I nodded. Thinking of the trouble my only valentine, the stupid caramel macchiato has caused me.

"You know what, I actually dated this girl out for a romantic dinner and the last minute she told me she is going out with her ex reason is that she's still in love with her ex and trying to do things to get him back. I was like what the heck." he chuckled in a sarcastic way." But on the bright side, I save 50 bucks. Ha!"

story3:
I went to my English class and Mr Batchelder was oh so happy and all that jazz when he came in . Why? Because it's Valentines.

" Are you going anywhere tonite, Edward?" one of the classmates asked.

Mr Batchelder was smiling but he showed dissapointment on his face.

"Well, I was suppose to have a romantic dinner with my wife tonite at this really nice restaurant. I called up for reservations and hoping to give her a surprise."

He's sweet, I thought.

" But then last friday, my wife has this really strong urge to eat out, and she wanted to eat at the very same restaurant. So I said that I don't want to eat out and she started to pick a fight with me, saying that I never want to go out and eat." He started to get real excited bout this fight.

" Then I told her: See, we have this situation here. I have already reserved a dinner for two on valentines day.So we should eat next tuesday instead of today."

But too bad, the wife insisted on going on friday. And so they went on friday. He first wanted to bring her to another dinner, but then she insisted on staying home to watch the winter olympic figure skating.

The story doesn't end here. Mr Batchelder INSISTED on doing something.

So he woke up early this morning and shovel the snow off from his driveway and used his shoes to draw a love shape with his wife name in it and ran into the house pretending that the neighbor's kids has done something to their garden. The wife went out and saw the love with her name in it. She was happy.

Mr Batchelder is terribly sweet. I wish HS is one tenth of him.

And my stomach still doesn't feel well. Valentine sure do suck.

Posted by Ding at 2/15/2006 07:48:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

Another cold winter day in Buffalo.
What makes it so special today is that its Valentines.
People are holding flowers in their hands.
But,
Makes no difference to me.
So instead of getting presents and flowers from some guy out there,
I treated myself a warm, soothing, carramel macchiato
in this chilly valentine.
Funny to say,
I am more contented than ever.
More contented than recieving any gifts.

Happy Valentines Day to everyone out there...
Valentines SUCK!!!!!

Posted by Ding at 2/15/2006 04:02:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

Posted by Ding at 2/14/2006 07:31:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

At the age of 14, I met someone special.
Little did I know, he is that someone who would later on take a big portion of my heart.

In the following years,
That someone had been in my mind all the time,
Every single smile
is carved deeply in my heart.

He came, He conquered.
Conquered my heart.

It has been almost ten years now.

But then...he is still in my heart. Although I know that we would never be,
but deep down inside,
every little thought of him makes me smile.

And I know this feeling will be with me forever.

Posted by Ding at 2/12/2006 12:40:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments

有时认为死亡离我不远。
若我死了，
我是否又能让身边的人，因怀念我而 默默地流下几滴泪？
在那当时， 我是否又是风流快活地在那西方佛国摘着琉璃果？
西方佛国，也未必是我的去处。
也许，我就活在爱我的人的心中，
活着。

Posted by Ding at 2/12/2006 11:29:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

走在冰天雪地里， 突然脑子里起了个疑问。 妈常说的西方极乐世界， 是否像我现在站着的地方那么冷？
诸佛诸菩萨， 在脑海里隐隐约约地出现。。。
他们身上都穿得薄薄地。。
再说，他们都住在一个有花有草有果有鸟的世界里。。。
哪来的冬天?
真傻！在他们的境界里又哪有冬天呢？
想到这儿，我不禁对自己的想法笑了一下，去上课了。

Posted by Ding at 2/10/2006 03:50:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

Posted by Ding at 2/08/2006 02:00:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

Well...something's wrong with this PC..so I'll try my best to finish this post and post before anything happens.

Brokeback mountain ROCKS!! Watch it...I know its a gay cowboy film and all, but it's a really sad movie..
They are just the same as those torn lovers who wants to be together but it's all about the social constraints that keeps them apart...so much like the Romeo and Juliet that we have been reading in novels all these years..Sad...damn, there should be more of these controversial movies about the gay and lesbians..

I am listening to a really weird japanese song from We love katamari soundtrack. It's called the "katamari on the rocks". It's fun...it makes me wanna feel katamari again outta sudden. Speaking about my katamari, i haven't touch it for ages....It's a really fun game.

I am on diet. I have half pita bread with egg and lettuce and two spoonful of italian dressing for brunch and dinner. And I have cereal and milk for supper. And a pack of sunchips for snack.lets see how much I can lose in three weeks with this diet.90 lbs, here I come.

GO WATCH BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN!!

Posted by Ding at 2/03/2006 01:54:00 午前 | Permalink | Comments

YES! To substitute the heavy TV watching and Ginko eating, I decided to transform all these new year habits into HARDCORE THREE DAY STRAIGHT SHOPPING... I tell you what...I had the ultimate shopping experience by getting stuff which are up to 75, 80, 85, 90% Off!!!

I went totally: OHMIGODTHISDKNYISSODAMNFUCKINCHEAPANDALSOTHATABERCR
OMBIESHIRTANDTHATCALVINKLIENTANKOMIGOD.
Told you I went nuts.

Yes, this is partly due to the psychological imbalance of only having Wendy's 99cents nugget after the 12 hours dining hall work when people are gathering around in some posh chinese restaurant eating fish and chicken on new years eve.

And the result of the shopping spree:
Two pairs of DKNY jeans,one of each of the following brand tees: abercrombie, american eagle, DKNY, BCBG. A calvin klein tank top and a pjpants from abercrombie.

The Damage? around $120

The Aftermath: I'll stop, I mean completely stop shopping for at least a couple of months.

Moral of the event: Instead of going on a shopping spree, better stay home and stick to the TV and snacks and get Angpow during CNY.

Posted by Ding at 2/01/2006 01:07:00 午後 | Permalink | Comments